so yeah...on Friday varsity played fossil ridge and yeah they kiked our @$$es and im so mad at our stupid V FB players...b-cuz now we are 5-3 and so now we're not gonna go to playoffs and that sucks so f*cking bad and this is like the worst day of my f*cking life....well one of them neways b-cuz today my mom decided that i was being angry and that im always angry or depressed or sad after i get back from visiting ppl from my old skwl and thats f*king BS b-cuz i wasnt even mad or angry or sad, like i miss my friends and everythng but i was never angry until she pissed me off b-cuz she kept on asking why i was so mad when i wasnt mad and i tried and tired to tell her that and she juss wasnt getting the f*cking point and so then i was pissed off and now shes like well maybe you juss shouldnt go back and visit your friends and i was like fine WTF ever, but thats bullshit and i hate arguing with her b-cuz shes like well why dont u come in here and have a talk with "me and ur dad" when really what she means is why dont u come in here so *I* can yell at you for about an hour and ur dad can sit there and do nothing like he always does when "we" are having talks and u can sit there and not give a f*ck b-cuz thats what ur good at and then i can get madder and madder and punish you for something that u didnt do in the first place b-cuz i juss dont understand u b-cuz i wont let u be the person u want to be b-cuz i keep trying to make u into something that ur not so ur confused about who u are and that pisses me off b-cuz then i dont know what to do and u dont know what to do b-cuz u dont understand whats going on and its my fault altho i'll never admit it b-cuz in my mind im right and ur wrong and im big and ur little and theres nothin u can do about it...so get the f*ck over it. and now *SHE* is saying that i need counceling b-cuz she is a shitty mom and i think shes juss saying that to see if i will tell her whats going on in my head when really i dont give a f*ck if i have to go to counceling...its her money shes wasting not mine...and i dont have to talk to ne-one, they cant make me so for me its like an hour of vacation time from her every time i go so why would i care about that..i welcome this "opportunity" with wide open arms!! im never gonna tell her whats going on in my head b-cuz she would never understand it, it would be a long drawn out waste of time and it would juss piss her off and im good at that already so WTF and so idk what to do alls i know is that im moving out of this f*ckin hell house ASAP b-cuz i hate my *"parents"* b-cuz their both f*cking liars and idk why on earth anyone would let them actually raise children and im never gonna turn out to be like them ever...i'll kill myself if i do, i know what i've gone thru in juss the short 4 years that i've actaully lived with them and i know how bad its been and its f*cking terrible and i will never make my children go thru what i have had to go thru b-cuz i know how it feels and its not a good feeling and i hate it and this will forever stick with me, these terrible memories of what are SUPPOSE to be the best years of my life, well they arent....their the worst ones!!!